“My journey the right and straight path”
by Isrâ Zubair Abdul-Wahhab
Bism'Allah al-Rahman al-Raheem (In the name of Allâh the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful)
Praise be to Allah, the Almighty, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Universe, and peace and blessings be upon our Prophet Muhammad, last of the Prophets, and upon all those who adhere to his example until the Day of Judgment
My full name is Isrâ Zubair Abdul-Wahhab and I reverted to Islam on the 1st of October 2004 , this story is written on the 21st of May in 2005. Although this is the moment where I read the Shahada (La ilaha illa Allah, Muhammadun rasoolu Allah), my journey to Islam started however ten years ago in England .
I was born in 1977 in Reykjavik the capital of Iceland . My family was not religious although it belonged to the Evangelical Lutheran Protestant state Church of Iceland . Like most other children in Iceland at that time I went to Sunday schools, were we traded bible cards, played music and sung songs (may Allah forgive me for my deeds!). I was disappointed with the education that I received in Sunday school because there was not that much focus on the Bible and the word of God in it self. Even set before these difficulties I never lost my faith in God and I was monotheistic. I completely rejected and loathed the holy trinity that I was thought both in Christianity studies in secondary school and Sunday school. If we imagine us an egg which has three parts: the shell, the clear fluid between the shell and the yolk. Then let us say that the shell represents the Holy Spirit, the clear fluid represents Jesus (radhi Allaahu 'anhu, Peace be upon him) and the yolk represents God. Then if we say that the whole egg in its totality is God and that God has three parts (a holy trinity) the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Now if we crucify the son Jesus (Peace is upon him) then don’t we remove the clear fluid between the shell and the yolk? Can we then claim that we have a whole egg? And can we then claim that we complete monotheism (monotheism is the belief in one God)? The answer in my heart was a clear no. I was not on the right path to God.
When I was growing up in Reykjavik , I alienated from the culture. I did not relate to the selfishness of some of the people around me, where everyone just cared about themselves and did not care about their fellow man. People where constantly hurting each other. Women were mistreated, beaten, raped and used as tissues by other men around me. I was disgusted by this! I asked myself where is the respect and love for women in this society? Why did they constantly point towards problems in the third world where they had similar problems in their own backyards? So like the Prophet Muhammad (salallaahu 'alayhi wassallam) I felt extremely alienated from my society. I often asked myself the question where do I belong? And I often cried and prayed to God to give me good guidance in my life. Although I felt alienated from the society I had good loving family which supported me. Yet I felt that I did not belong to the society since I did not find any comfort in any material gains, and the more things I acquired the lonelier I got. Allot of times in my child hood where spent thinking and pondering on these existential questions. And even my grandmother started complaining to my parents over the fact I thought too much. But I was convinced there was no doubt in my mind that there was a creator that had given me a purpose in my life. I could not live my life without any goal or any meaning.
Then when I was 14 years old my parents sent me to an English school for children in England , in my class there were mixed nationalities. Among my classmates where Muslim brothers from the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia and Yemen , we became friends and started to hang around with each other. We discussed different matters and I was able to see threw the propaganda that I had been subjected to throw the media as a child. These people where human beings just like me and I learned that the propaganda that was shown about Islam in the media was far away from the truth, and also I realized the there are no distinctions between human beings no matter which race, creed, status we have we are all human. From that point on I became interested in Islam. And I started reading as much about Islam as I could. And even today I am thirsty for even more knowledge on my religion, and it is the duty of every Muslim to seek knowledge about his or her religion. “High above all is Allah, the King, the Truth! Be not in haste with the Qur'an before its revelation to thee is completed, but say, "O my Lord! advance me in knowledge."[Surah Tāhā, 20.114], “O ye who believe! when it is said unto you, Make room! in assemblies, then make room; Allah will make way for you (hereafter). And when it is said, Come up higher! go up higher; Allah will exalt those who believe among you, and those who have knowledge, to high ranks. Allah is Informed of what ye do.”[Surah Al-Mujadila, 58.11].
It was after a careful consideration of the facts and a thoughtful process that has taken nearly thirteen years that I decided to take one more step forward and to walk the right path and take the religion of Islam. This is the path which is closest to my heart Masha Allah, and Allah with his mercy has opened my heart. Allah Lâ ilâha illâ Huwa (none has the right to be worshipped but He), the ever living, the one who sustains and protects all that exists. Neither slumber, nor sleep overtakes Him. To Him belongs whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on earth. He knows what happens to them (His Creatures) in this world, and what will happen to them in the Hereafter. And they will never compare anything of His knowledge except that He wills. His Kursi extends over the heavens and the earth, and He feels no fatigue in guarding and preserving them. And He is the Most High, the Most Great (Ayat-ul-Kursi). [Surah Al-Baqarah, 2:255). I feel privileged to be a part of Muslim Ummah you are all my brothers and sisters. At last I have found true peace in my heart, I can not put the feelings that I have into words for these feelings are beyond words! I have truly come to the right and straight path! And finally I feel peace and love in my heart.
O Allah, send peace and blessings
upon our prophet Muhammed, his
companions and all those who follow them in
righteousness till the Day of Reckoning. Aameen.